NOT SO NICE

IM BACK**

2010-06-08T22:29:00.000-07:00

1)it has been awhile since i blogg...maybe its true what pple said, ull do smth when u are triggerd emotionally.

2)have not been blogging because i cant expressed myself for all of the things that had happend.it happened so fast, very fast that it slipped, and just happened.

3)i was helplaess, alone and i decided to for most of the time, isolate myself and just haf that alone moment to think and tell myself , to myself;by myself on what had just happend.

4)studies was challenging.but my life as a whole grant me total package, thanks to God.

5)my silver lining after the heavy rains was clear, and so i rise and hit the world back, with a smile, partially because i believe i deserve to smile and be happy again.

6)love.i broke up from my 2 years relationship and im glad that i had my friends with me, esp my mum all the way through the hard time.im lucky that im still alive that i did not committed suicide.hahahahha...

7)this semester was a long life lesson.rented a house, learnt how to manage living with housemates, time managemnt to clean the house, money issues, life isssues, frens issues, trust issues, family issues...etc..etc...

8)my so called dad.i was there, creating a bond with him.and he was there, for sometimes, but he decided to go away again because he cant accept the truth.this is what i call.a life story.he was never really there.so.tell me, issit my fault when i proposed a new, a fresh start for both of us, but he kept living with his cliche old attitude?

lemme tell u that,...forever, forever..ull be my dad.and for the fact that i know that ull be reading this post..i hope u learn. and read, and most importanatly, try to understannd me, my munm ,and iewan.u left us when i was sooo, verry , verry young that honestly i just donnt noe, the feeelings of having a dad.dad?menas nothing to me.u cant blame me, because we never really talk.u never really know me,u heard stories bout me from onther pple and u judge me from this ridiculous words of mouth.its not fair. i was there in bintulu when u wabnted me there.but u remember what happened?u remember?

u remember the words u uttered to me that makes me cry endlessly in the hotel lobby and the washroom?do u remember how many hours i cried foe u?foe all this family system?or maybe u haf zero ideas bout all this thing im saying because, simply ...because..u just dont care.but its ok..its ok.i forgive u.

it was my birthday,and for the whole week, every night before i sleep, i was drained in my own tears.., as i think about how unfortunate my life was.i was so near to u, but u barely even look at my face.was there beside u , but to hear u ask on how am i doing or...asking me bout my life, mu school, my hobby, or just about anything was only my pure hallucination.

9)im done crying for u.hopefully, ull undersatand.im 21 years now and im not sure wether u are aware of that.

10)ill stop writting bout u for now, because, its ur loss if u abandoned me.u need me when ur old.susah senang kita x tahu.bila masa dibawah, masa diatas, masa sakit, masa sehat.ull need me, and iewan one day.so , stop all this drama.

11)this holiday, i decided not to go back to Kuching, partly because my heart is still in pain, conflicting like the cosmic flames.i cant relly decide.2 weeks, i was all alone at home, bein mental.but i had fun..i enjoy the loneliness..bein lonely is not entirely bad after all.makes me a better person.**

apabila dah susah nak ditegur

2010-03-11T22:24:00.000-08:00

1)semua ibu bapa sedaya upaya mendidik anak anak dgn sempurna.sila note bahaa lain lain family lain lain cara mendidik.ada ibu bapa yg memanjakan anak sampaikan kerja rumah semua beres ditanggung bibik aau mak bapak.bagi ibu bapa golongan ini, itu lah yang sepatutnya, anak anak jgn disusah kan.nanti tak ada masa belajar la, tangan kasar, etc. ada juga yang mendidik anak anak untuk hidup mengenal erti kesusahan. hidup mesti diteruskan, kerja rumah mesti tahu buat, bagi i tats the way to go.

cont..

TIGER

2010-02-23T10:46:00.000-08:00

HANI LOVE TIGER EH

watchout

2010-02-21T08:05:00.000-08:00

im nobody comin up here, comin to the hood, raising to the top. watchout. nobody do it like me.

imagine-john lennon

2010-02-21T00:29:00.000-08:00

Imagine there's no Heaven

It's easy if you try

No hell below us

Above us only sky

Imagine all the people

Living for today

Imagine there's no countries

It isn't hard to do

Nothing to kill or die for

And no religion too

Imagine all the people

Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions

I wonder if you can

No need for greed or hunger

A brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people

Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will live as one

im progressing

2010-02-20T21:12:00.000-08:00

1) salams, i just woke up tadik and braaahhhh...!!!brrrrr!!!! im now drinkin koka kola... thats my current hot tea i supposed, oh too much as breakfast. wink!

2)just woke up from my sleep.. wonder what happened in my dream justnow. i remember luke , emer and his indian fren jadi pelakon, and berlakon with Ella, the rock lady?and she was fucking nude in d movie, primiere in malaysia.weh!i was supposed to jadi pelakon, not luqman la b!!ok, that was menggelikan to see ella telanjang tho. body?not hot la in my mimpi justnow.

3)received berbelas belas msges bila sedar from tdo. my mum just send my adik to the bus terminal coz his heading back to uitm mukah cya...

4)my mum told me that she will start doing biscuit to sell as to menambah pendapatan.mencari rezeki yang halal. we r facing financial problem bha.. btw, my mum also do cupcakes in kuching. feel free to order sekiranya berminat, this is her num0178042319,hayati.she also do some hantaran perkahwinan , and u also can inquiry for jahitan manik d baju kurung servis.(oh my god.. my sentence hancoo ehh)

5)facebook adalah tempat saya "berjumpa" dgn kwn kwn yg da lama terpiasah.. i like it in the way .however, i dont spill everything i do in fb. wow. i knw some of thm do..motif?

i assume, nak cpt glamer la ya..and facebook merupakan sumber esp for couple of frens to kelaiee, i mean bergadoh. issues arises as pictures gives millions of expresssion towards those who r seing it.it a lil sad to see, "my frens" yg culture shock. dulu bertudung , now tidak, dulu baju bertutup tapi now hot pants is their baju kurung,before teh o ice limau now jadi jack daniels..hahaha.. i dont even fuckin noe wether i spell that one rite, lets try spelling heinieken. betol ka?wtv la ryte, as long as u got what i meant.love ya.

6) and ada kononya kwn , makan kwn, bila kwn da malas nak layan, kwn da touching baruk pandey nak bercarik balit. hipokrit abiss.

7)Bonny, omg.

8)i urge.. watch THE ARRIVALS ON YOU TUBE.

9)AND definitely, im glad to be alive .thanks for Luqman mazlan. for the company and understanding b.

10)i hope Bonny Leong sedar, and boleh menjadi seorng bapa. dah umur me da21 da tok, i never feel anyhing in relation to having a dad.i just know that i hate him before.

daym.before jak ka?

nop.i hope Allah bukak kan hatinya.kenal tanggungjawab.me n iewan tok anak kandung nya bha.sometimes i wish i dint kenal cpa bapak me mun da mala nyusah ati gtok eh. i haf no money now.so help me bha. that is what at learst u can do bha.

11) i pity iewan.remaja.macam macam la keinginan. mok ya, mok tok, mok g cney la... tapi we cannot polah gya. we sik mampu bha

kesian. sik hall la me sikda, sik hal, tapi me pity iewan juak bha. he is still nembiak.kdg kdg sik phm penderitaan mak. apa perasaan seorang ibu bila anak mintak smth and she dapat provide??

mesti nya rasa kecewa like she is a failure, like she is so lemah so miskin so terok ryte?

i know my mum sedeh for all she wants bha.. tapi me janji that nasib family kita akan berubah. tho im not smatr akademically, but i ca see myself on top kelak. i dont know. but i knw im some1 special. i can do things . i can survive.im living life with purpose,i dint hafal or faham apa lect padah dalam kelas tapi trust me, i now there is something for me.ive been the black sheep since kecik and its a curse. still until now im still the blacksheep bha. angga[ tok ujian dari Allah .

will it be a come back?

2010-02-20T06:48:00.001-08:00

hey.. hello..

i was asked by several people regarding y blog..like y issit only pictures and no word?

barely nothing about me, my life, etc...

i really dunntnoe what to answer that question though deep inside me me knew the answer bha..

1)mungkin me still cant get the whole grip of myself.. im still not over the past..ie family matters, friends, debate, and my studies.

2)i know that setiap yang berlaku terhadap setiap insan ada hikmah nya..

setiap yg terjadi adalah ujian dari ALLAH SWT.im no so religious, nor i knew much on religious matter, im no parfeit not perfect, as im only a human being like you.

3)i believe i destiny , fate, the qadak and qadar in life. i believe that things are fated, are well planed for us, for me, you, my mum , my brothe my nenek..(i miss tem so much) so as my beloved lovely aunties, cousin , nephew, and all the rest bloodlines.

4) call me gai, or poyo, or author wanna be, i dont care. read it , feel it, enjoy it , hate it , shit on my writtings , seriusly , i dont care, we enjoyed it as much now. so ho really cares.thank u.

5)what are we mde of?

in my humble words, i supposed we are all made of pure honest soul, in which we are placed in a tool ; so called body. our physical.

6)so as i recall, most of us fed our physical needs more than our soul. sedangkan, our body is only a medium for us to achieve the ultimate soul needs (in which i include Iman). again, im no perfect.i own little knowledge, just thinking bout this, now that im writting it here.

7)kiri kanan, left and right, apa yg most of all kejar?money, cars, women, big houses, pangkat, power, more and more amazing branded cloth, shoes, diamonds ring.. etc.. and to the extend that we human being cant get enuf of all the materialistic temtation, that we end up changing our sexuality because one day wewoke up and feels like woh!maybe its tyme to wore a dress instead of the usual soccer pants. they change their sexuality, not to mentioned those who had changed their physical look not for any medical requirement, but merely because their nose arent sharp enuf, or their boobs are too small and that small boobs is not sexy enuf that it should be bigger, or simply because my eyes look to small that i look like im sleepy and that i hate it.. oh how about their celebrity idol own the goddess body that they just need to haf such body too?

familiar isnt?ill said very.

8)we never will get enuf, though we had it all, we still want more.tahts y, i believe wtv happends, me haf to bersyukur. though i was raised only by my mum, i am glad that at least i haf a mumm.at least i haf her as my shellter, my umbrella, my air, my very best friend, my love, my life.. basically my mum is muy inner strength to carry on with all the things i do. my life is hers. i love my mum. thanks mak to jaga me tyme me sakit, to berik me makan, susu, jaga me tyme me demam, to be there for me trough all the ups and down in my life. i know, without u , i cant barely stands.

9)though im not as extra lucky like my other friends, but well, maybe im not lucky back then, maybe in the comin future ryte?crossed finger, amin. its a lie if sik pernah rasa jealous to c my other friends, perfect family, vacation during school holidays, can go shopping la apa, but sik hall la.. i know siapa myself, face the fact, my family belum mampu to lavish lavish gya.

so ill worked hard for alll those kelak, hanta my mum g haj, me n iewan and ninek g sekali..issyaAllah. amin.

10)apa apa pun sik rugi bila dibesarkan dalam keadaan yg agak i think mengenal erti kesusahan, struggle, survival. u can throw me anywhere n the world, insyaAllah, i can survive.

11)thanks to all, muy mum, iewan, ninek, (semoga dipanjangkan umur dgn kesihatan yg baik, dimurahkan rezeki and may He shines His lights on us .dikuatkan iman and semangat, semoga kita tidak lalai dan sentiasa reha, berusaha dan tawakal dgn yang Maha Besar,Allah)

will it be a come back?

2010-02-20T06:48:00.000-08:00

fun?

2010-02-11T20:54:00.000-08:00

2 YEARS ANI..

2010-02-10T08:11:00.000-08:00

HAPPY ANI SAYANG, I LOVE YOU!

2010-02-10T08:07:00.000-08:00

yeahh... thats what i want currently...

LAzinesss

2010-02-10T08:01:00.000-08:00

felt so lazy few days back...

gotta put myself back together.. and definitely n the mood to PARRRTTTYYYY!!!!

CASUAL CARDI-TOPSHOP NEWEST UK VERSION

2010-01-30T21:50:00.000-08:00

IF YOU HAD MY LOVE

2010-01-30T21:38:00.000-08:00

TOPMAN FEATURED BUTTON DOWN HEROES -LATEST

2010-01-30T21:34:00.000-08:00

!

2010-01-30T20:31:00.000-08:00

the BF l,TO thE y

2010-01-30T20:18:00.000-08:00

SHE'S MY MUM eh!

2010-01-30T12:14:00.000-08:00

THE SCANDALLOUS LOVE FOR CHANEL

2010-01-30T11:59:00.000-08:00

KICK THE BALL HARD!!

2010-01-30T11:45:00.000-08:00

Nike Total 90 Ascente Lega Calcio Official Match Ball

Official match ball of The Italian Serie A for the 2009-2010 season.

Geometric precision distributes pressure evenly across panels and around the ball for a consistent, accurate and powerful strike no matter where you kick it. Perfectly spherical for true flight.

COVER: Compressed polyethylene that absorbs energy and releases it at launch. Micro texture improves control by equalizing air flow over the surface. Cross-linked nitrogen-expanded foam for exceptional shape retention. Polyester support fabric for durability.
BLADDER: Six-wing carbon latex for explosive acceleration. Imported. FIFA approved.

Nike Total 90 Ascente LFP Official Match Ball

Official match ball of La Liga for the 2009-2010 season.

Geometric precision distributes pressure evenly across panels and around the ball for a consistent, accurate and powerful strike no matter where you kick it. Perfectly spherical for true flight.
COVER: Compressed polyethylene that absorbs energy and releases it at launch. Micro texture improves control by equalizing air flow over the surface. Cross-linked nitrogen-expanded foam for exceptional shape retention. Polyester support fabric for durability.
BLADDER: Six-wing carbon latex for explosive acceleration. Imported. FIFA approved.
Price: $125.99

adidas Jabulani FIFA World Cup 2010 Official Match Ball

' Jabulani is the Official Match Ball for the 2010 FIFA World Cup in South Africa. Jabulani means to celebrate in isiZulu, one of the 11 languages of South Africa, and the design of the Jabulani has 11 colors to honor those 11 languages, in addition to the 11 communities of South Africa and and the 11 players on a team. The 11 colors also honor the fact that this is adidas' 11th FIFA World Cup ball. Constructed with eight new thermally-bonded, spherically-shaped, 3-D EVA and TPU panels, the Japbulani is perfectly round and has been equipped with a new Grip'n'Groove technology. Grip'n'Groove is a textured treatment that ensures the Jabulani flies straight and true. The Japbulani is designed for never-before-seen power, swerve and control. It's a ball truly worthy of the best in the game.
COVER: Termally-bonded PU for exceptionally true and straight flight.
BLADDER: Latex for excellent rebound.

FUTSAL SHOES ANYONE?

2010-01-30T11:32:00.000-08:00

Nike Mercurial Steam V IC Indoor Soccer Shoes

Mercurial Steam V IC! With its sleek look and distinctive characteristics, these indoor soccer shoes are a perfect fit for any soccer player to use on indoor surfaces.

UPPER: Soft, supple, synthetic leather covers the upper part of the shoe, to provide a great ball feel. The laces are covered to expand the ball contact area and allow extra ball control.

MIDSOLE: Within the shoe is a die-cut EVA sockliner to make a more comfortable shoe.

OUTSOLE: The outsole of the shoe contains a low-profile gum rubber with Phylon inserts, an innovative traction pattern, and a forefoot flex groove.

adidas Super Sala VI Indoor Soccer Shoes

Great shoes for Futsal. Breathable upper with thin outsole combine for great comfort.

UPPER: Synthetic leather with mesh nylon for lightweight breathability. Rubber toe cap for added durability. adiPRENE insert in the heel offers comfort. EVA midsole for cushioning.
OUTSOLE: Non-marking rubber for use on indoor surfaces. WEIGHT: (oz.)

Nike 5 T-3 FS Men's Indoor Soccer Shoe

heated indoor competition, keep you eye on the ball and your feet moving in the lightweight Nike 5 T-3 FS Men's Football Shoe with flexibility and plenty of traction.Inter leather upper for comfort
Off-set lacing for improved ball contact
Molded EVA sockliner at midsole for improved heel cushioning
Articulating rubber gum outsole provides non-marking traction
Toe Punt technology for increased ball control and shooting accuracy
Use for indoor-competitionNo matter the surface, the Nike Zoom 5 T-7 FS Men's Soccer Shoe equips you with enhanced ball control and accuracy as you charge the net for the game-winning goal.

adidas Men's Samba Classic

never goes out of style. Its soft leather upper and a low-profile gum rubber outsole give the elite player ultimate control. * Full grain leather upper for comfort and soft feel * Durable gum-rubber outsole * Imported

TOGETHER WE SAVE THE ANIMALS! STOP ANIMAL ABUSE!!

2010-01-30T11:22:00.000-08:00

MRANDA ZUEEZUSE

2010-01-30T10:50:00.000-08:00

HOW THE FUCK CANT U SEE ME IN THE FACE?

2010-01-30T10:45:00.000-08:00

Had always loved you

2010-01-30T10:37:00.000-08:00

and now you lost me..........

honey * lo love

2010-01-30T10:23:00.000-08:00

complexity

2010-01-30T10:03:00.000-08:00

felt so lonely, and definitely;empty.

now where im heading to?

try not to cry --outlandish

2010-01-30T09:30:00.000-08:00

You, you’re not aware That we’re aware Of your despair Don’t show your tears To your oppressor Don’t show your tears  CHORUS: Try not to cry little one You’re not alone I’ll stand by you Try not to cry little one My heart is your stone I’ll throw with you  Isam: ‘Ayn Jalut where David slew Goliath This very same place that we be at Passing through the sands of times This land’s been the victim of countless crimes From Crusaders and Mongols to the present aggression Then the Franks, now even a crueller oppression If these walls could speak, imagine what would they say  For me in this path that I walk on there's only one way Bullets may kill, bones may break Still I throw stones like David before me and I say  CHORUS  You, you’re not aware That we’re aware Of your despair Your nightmares will end This I promise, I promise  CHORUS  Lenny: No llores, no pierdas la fe La sed la calma el que haze Agua de la arena Y tu que te levantas con orgullo entre las piedras Haz hecho mares de este polvo Don’t cry, don’t lose faith The one who made water come out of the sand Is the one who quenches the thirst And you who rise proud from between the stones Have made oceans from this dust  Waqas: I throw stones at my eyes ’cause for way too long they’ve been dry Plus they see what they shouldn’t from oppressed babies to thighs I throw stones at my tongue ’cause it should really keep its peace I throw stones at my feet ’cause they stray and lead to defeat A couple of big ones at my heart ’cause the thing is freezing cold But my nafs is still alive and kicking unstoppable and on a roll I throw bricks at the devil so I’ll be sure to hit him But first at the man in the mirror so I can chase out the venom  Isam: Hmm, a little boy shot in the head Just another kid sent out to get some bread Not the first murder nor the last Again and again a repetition of the past Since the very first day same story Young ones, old ones, some glory How can it be, has the whole world turned blind? Or is it just ’cause it’s only affecting my kind?! If these walls could speak, imagine what would they say For me in this path that I walk on there’s only one way Bullets may kill, bones may break Still I throw stones like David before me and I say  CHORUS

underwear as an outwear

2010-01-22T19:01:00.000-08:00

stars who posed nude for a cause

2010-01-22T18:21:00.001-08:00

for more details on the ads, pls visit cleo .com.Eva Mendes is one of the high profile celebs who posed for PETA's controversial anti fur- ads

Supermodel Giselle stripped down in an ad campaign to promote her eco-friendly sandals and to raise awareness of the need to preserve fresh water in her native Brazi

victoria beckham took part in Marc Jacob's 'Protect the skin you're in' campaign to raise awareness for safe sun practices.

last year Miranda Kerr did a nude cover shoot for Rolling Stone to raise awareness for Australian Koala Foundation's "No Tree , No Me" campaingn.

injen appears on the Marie Claire sans Photoshop in support of positive body image. sans Photoshop in support of positive body image.

wah!

2010-01-22T17:58:00.000-08:00

browsing some malaysian gosip website and i found this.. i was suprised to see Betty's pic for sure.. memang la this pple memang seksi and social just that to a formal ocassion bha..the breast mcm d tutup gya gya jak.. and nya pun tek selesa juak owh..ntah la.... bak kata Nabil, lu pk la sendiri...

endless...

2010-01-21T17:42:00.000-08:00

i was sick horribly for 5 days and straight away after that was confirmed dengue...

horrible feelings but thanks to Kak Isma for taking care of me..thanks to Luqman and beatrice and Ruby for being there for me and the beach swimmers too! tyme denggi ya me haf to amik darah every morning at pk...cold blooded needle every morning sucking ur blood. ieww, how sick does that sound?and suprisingly its not just me.. ada bnyk eh rupanya student kenak denggi... siriusly, me terkejut eh...sakit duhal kenak denggi esp the part that sik boley miss amik darah everday.. boley jd kembang tangan sebab amik darah ya..mine amik darah pakey tgn kanan..and ada one tyme ya me rasa da sakit glak my tangan that me requested to amik darah pakey tgn kiri and cdak sik suruh coz nya padah ya d reserve for cdak hospital in case things get worst, me hearing that berdesing weih telinga coz me sik mauk mun jadi makin teruk.. sik sanggup nak bgun awal pg and amik darah jak jak.. mun masok hospital haf to masok air la, darah la... kamek sik mauk aie.. and my mum was so worried, ny anak datang tp sik jadi...me agak sedeh p sik pat polah apa apa...and hal me demam or denggi sik rami org tauk coz benda tok semua jadi cepat gilak..kak demam terus denggi bha.. so a bad start for this sememster lorxx... so some of my friends mcm bising uak dgn me pahal sik inform indah bha.. gney la.. nak nama kita tok d tpt orh.. polah hal masing masing.. ya la mun ngenang kita d tpt dikpun lain bha....but dont worry la..me recovering ...im ok da.. hopefully denggi sik datang kaco me agik eh...im starting goin to class da.. and ok la.. not bad.. and mala haf to kemas and lap lap brg d umah coz sik mauk dbu..me allergy ria teruk berdarah darah coz debu bha..i hate dust!mala nyesah jak me tok d umah maklumla ada washing machine indah nak?hahaha... bah .. ok la.. lamak sik update bha.cpa reading my blog tok pun me sik tauk ada sik ..p sik hall la nak.. me will update gik soon...sorry aha.. me sik post gambar coz me sikda camera.hp pun basic hp jak.

again

2010-01-11T09:22:00.000-08:00

literally im dead again

WTF WITH D FAKENESS?

SHITNESS!

class today

2010-01-11T04:47:00.000-08:00

i was tired last nyte. dint watch AJL till the end because luke mintak teman main futsal, so went off with him after stacy performed...for the winners ya.. congrats la..class was ok, the contract lect was owwkayy...hmmm....and i was happy that Fad s in my class... then for french class, i like the lecturer laaa.. she is an indian lady.... me like her... well, yes, for now..hey, ok la nak ?

mun the class started stress-free nak?yang sik best is me sik makan bfo g kelas, had a glass of dutch lady low fat milk and some milo ceral jak then me took off terus, so bila balit umah nang kelaparan la....me masak ayam tepung kentucky , tempey goreng and sup sayur....burrpp!!!hahahah... and Ruby today cuci dishes..!!! i like my house and i hope i will continue liking it.so, gtg for now.. but before that, lemme show u some amazing ring ive found..i like it.u?

lemme present to you.....

2010-01-10T02:01:00.000-08:00

to the cupcakes lovers, me present to u , the cupcake that can rawwwww!!!!!!
to sexy lingerie lovers, m epresent u one of my personal fav lingerie add...
and to all Rihanna fan out there, judge for urself her hairsyle..imagine walking to class with those hair...pak guard will kepong and saman sik owwhh?

wink!
and Twillight beauty products... amazing isnt?

from a movie to a cosmetics brand..rest asure that u wont turned vampire after applying the beauty products...

today friday!

2010-01-07T20:14:00.001-08:00

bgun pukul 11.30 pagi... terus me text my friends and mum... today the plans is to jumpa tuan rumah and sign contract rumah...then will pasang streamix di rumag coz its gonna be more murah bha.. sik tahan mok bayar rm100 permonth.. anyway, im expecting the peti ais to come today.. and me will beli kuali and some other perkakas dapur so that we can masak di rumah and definitely berjimat ...hmm!!

anyway, mr Haris, my tort lect padah he terkejut me repeat the paper coz i was always asking him questions and participate in class bha... p me padah ngan nya me sik kesah coz me suka tort pun subject aie.. me anggap that is cabaran and purely just smth to tambah my ilmu jak la.. coz me malas nak cry over it ...for subject MLS,me hope its gona be ok la... my lect padah nya hate that subject juak aie.. ahahha..lol!pray jak for me that i can get tru things la owhh.. thanks dear friends...

ok la.. me rasa me nak bekemas jap. nak mandik indah lok.. got things to uruskan today.. im sorry if me sik reply msg or sik terangkat call kay?

probably me tgh mandik, or berbeli barang... or me sik dgr phone berdering dalam handbag kayh?

salamss....

bitch eh!!

2010-01-07T10:32:00.000-08:00

weh bitch, me sik pelu nak fite for benda ya la...me sik terdesak like u!!!

sik pelu nak tua ija glak ya!!!

me love kids eh!

2010-01-06T08:29:00.000-08:00

baby fasha
baby ekal
baby lala
Aizam, Kimi, Hani
Kimi n Hani
Hani and lala

PAINFULL

2010-01-06T08:20:00.000-08:00

Hani jadi plastic bag KFC

2010-01-06T06:27:00.000-08:00

the wind is softly blowing, gently it moves my hair, and me? licking my lunch.. what a great day i thought to myself...im so hungry and KFC today made my day... kesian me.

anyway dear.., lemme ask u..what will u do when u saw that plastic bag flown away in front of u?

like me, i just watched it bein blown away by the afternoon wind...

that was the plastic ive asked the cashier for. i need that plastic bag just proximately for the last 20 seconds, to help me carry my kentucky fried chicken ; my lunch...

im still thinking about the plastic bag...

my mind just kept on thinkin on that plastic bag... i think i saw myself as the KFC plastic bag..how can e need something so badly before and suddenly out of all reason, suddenly u need it no more and let it go wasted , blown away till it reaches somewhere near the roadside., before so useful, now so useless. before, we need it.no, we all hate it.coz d plastic bag da jadi sampah.

sampah. trash. kotor. useless.

we did so much to create a plastic bag.

we put so much afford to process one.

but bila sik mok pakey gik, we buang the plastic bag and we all hate it, we curse plastic bag coz now its a sampah. kotor and jijik, nun di roadside nun.

entahla..

am i the plastic bag?

i am?

me sik tak eh..

pahal me pk plastik bag?

*eh, mun my spelling sik betol ka, ampun ah. me penin eh

is it really a ahappy new year?

2010-01-03T07:03:00.000-08:00

is it a hapy new year?

2010-01-03T06:51:00.000-08:00

2010-01-01T21:11:00.000-08:00

i will try to fix u .....

hani honey

2009-12-24T04:43:00.000-08:00

future roomates

2009-12-23T19:34:00.000-08:00

SEARCHING FOR GIRLS WHO ARE INTERESTED IN RENTING A MEDIUM SIZED ROOM IN SEC7, LEVEL 4, BLOCK57.

WE ARE SEARCHING FOR GIRL(S)WHO ARE -CLEAN -OPEN MINDED AND EASY GOING -NONSMOCKER AND NON-DRINKER(U CAN SMOKE AND ENJOY UR ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGES OUTSIDE BUT NOT IN D HOUSE YA?

-AND WE DOES NOT ALLOWED FRIENDS-CRUSSHING IN

THE ROOM IS GREAT FOR THOSE WHO ARE SEARCHING FOR -A ROOM OF YOUR OWN -PRIVACY -RELAX AND CHILL KINDA ENVIRONMENT TO LIVE IN.

-COMFORTABLE AND CONDUSIVE PLACE TO STUDY -FRIENDLY AND EASY GOING HOUSEMATES FYI; CURRENTLY THE OTHER 2 ROOMS ARE RENTED BY 2 GIRLS(EACH OF THEM RENTED ONE ROOM EACH).

IF U R D TYPE WHO WANT TO GET AWAY OF THE USUAL DRAMA LIVING UP TO 6 OR MORE PEOPLE IN A HOUSE(WHICH USUALLY LEADS TO GADOH/FIGHTS AMONG FRIENDS),

THEN UR D ONE WE R LOOKING FOR

. RENTING THE ROOM WILL PROVIDE U WITH OTHER ACCOMODATION SUCH AS

-CABLE TV -

WASHING MACHINE(mesin basuh)

-FAN(kipas angin)

-STOVE(DAPUR TO MASAK)

-CARPET and

-PETI SEJUK .

-THE PARKING SPACE IS FAR MORE SPACEY AND CONVIENIENT FROM THE OTHER BLOCKS. BLOK INI MERUPAKAN DIANTARA BLOCK BARU JADI ENVIRONMENT NYA AGAK BERSIH COMPARED TO THE OTHER BLOCKS.

IF UR HUNGRY AND HAUNTING FOR FOOD, U CAN JUST CROSS THE ROAD FOR SOME NASI KANDAR, NASI LEMAK OR THE PAK ALI'S NASI AYAM LEMON. THATS WHERE U CAN BUY THE OTHER BASIC NECESITIES.

IF ANYTHING GOES WRONG WITH THE HOUSE, ASSISTANCE AND HELP CAN EASILY BE PROVIDED BY THE OWNER AS HE IS LIVIN NEARBY.

IF UR SEACHING FOR WHAT WE R OFFERIN U, (PRIVACY, A NON-CROWEDED HOUSE), BUZZ ME UP .

price deposit rm 8oo

2plus 1 plus rm 300 for utilities bills whill be given back to us. so all and al perly bayar rm 8oo for deposit

per month the room is rm 233

tak yermasuk bil air and elektrik.

kalau 2 org share this room then lg murah la.

thank u

hani eh!

2009-12-23T04:43:00.000-08:00

ONLY 2

there wud only be two

and not more than 2

2 is the only thing that can happen

only 2 possibily that can happen

there is only 2, men n women.

there can be only two.

only siang and malam

there can only be two

getting it and losing it

there can be only dua

u can only and are only made by ur mak and bapak kan?

unless u bayi tabung uji la

only two.. u nak tegur that person or just buat dunntnoe

there is only two

kalau nak , buat betol betol, if u tak nak.. then buat je ala kadar sekadar cukup syarat

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life is a mystery , solve it

life is a game, play it

life is a struggle , go for it.

life is a challenge, so sahut cabaran.

life is a story , tell it.

life is a music, sing it.

life is a drama, play ur role

life is a cake, eat it

life is a destiny , face it

life is amazing, praise it

life is fabulous, fabulousize it

life is all about how u c it and how u define it

what happens in other pples life mite and mite not happen to us

its all back to d decision u made .

so decide wisely

life precious.

u only hafe one life

only one

so be wise on ur decision

as much u wanna explore ur so call freedom or call it rights..(to make it sound intelligent)

but remember, life is also about limitation

to impose, to draw a fine line to where u can and cannot reach

as much as u want to be dramatic about life, u also haf to be realistic.

be realistic on urself

ukur baju d badan sendiri

jagan ikut org lain

u haf to stand and decide for urself as well

love urself as well

bukan kata mementingkan diri sendiri

tapi kalau asyik pk orhg lain all the time, cpa nak pk bout diri kita?

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kadang kadang kita terlalu pk kan hal org lain sehinggakan kita tersasar

tersasar dari apa yg sepatutnya kita buat dan laksanakan

kenapa jd begitu?

mungkin kerana kita terlalu sygkan org org tersebut kan?

untuk my friend yg bakal masuk shah alam ni nanti, i hope u guys bawak relax

jgn terlalu excited

and jgn sesekali buat statement coz i knew those who did and cross it themselves

sedeh nyer

cthnya"kat shah alam ni tak ada distraction..., kat kedah baru ada distraction"

ok ..urm sounds chezzy.

ahahha

i pun tak tahu asal la dasyat sgt statement tapi tak lama after that couple plak.... my point it, berhati hati

jgn terlalu mudah percayakan org d sekeliling anda ok

really .. nanti menagis

lelaki perempuan pun sama

perempuan sekarang pun dasyat dasyat

kalau nak bat jahat lelaki ka , perempuan ka, sama jak bha..

kalau da terdesak , ape ape pu lantak je

tak tahu halal haram

curi laptop, hp, baju, wallet , purse, semua telah menjadi norm in shah alam

love ur stuff

make sure u lock ur door everytime gettin out from the room even to pee pee and wee wee..

ahahahha

im teribly sorry for not updating d blog .. this is because i tak bayar bill intenet that day

u c, money is so d very d important.

i haf to pay fo my rumah sewa

anyone, only terbuka kepada kaum perempuan sahaja, any1 yg takda home and want to stay , buzz me asap k?

im waiting babe...

heeellllllllloooooooooo futeure housemates!

to all, im getiing better

im stable-laizing (hahaha)

so teruk la me pun bahasa

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pardon me!!

anyway before i go, i nak ajar cikit

kita share ckit ckit k?

me ajar bahasa sarawak k?

ther it goes with d translation!!

enjoy learning

me-- kamek

you-- kitak

macam-- kedak

watermelon--semangka

pink-- kalas

purple-engkodok

hijau-- gadong

(the sebutan i gave for colours are the klasik sarawak vocabulary

kitra dasyat la if org semenanjung tahu ni.)

i like u---kamek suka kitak

i hate u-- kamek bencik kitak or kamek sik suka kitak

i wanna be with u-- kamek mok dgn kitak

why? -- kenak?

watssup?-- pacita tek? (sort ta.. ahahah)

gedik--ngegeh

go try!!

chaw

hani

2009-12-18T10:20:00.000-08:00

FIRST OF ALL, THANK ALLAH FOR THE NEW YEAR.

thanks to my mum for being there for me tru all the misery ie been lately.

today, thank you for Mohd Iqbal Naeem for making my day lighter.

thank you for my both of my bestfriend, Dyanah and Hazuan for bein with me throughout all the pain ive dearly suffered and still suffering .

thank you to Alan, u noe what u did!!

thank you to ngah Ayeng for making my holiday happier, and my lovable baby Fasha... the cutest ever.. love, love u.

as uve realized, ive deleted most of my posting. I cant bear looking at my past, what i did and what happends after that.so i deleted most of them.

i hated all of them.

like i hated my life just yet.

i can barely compose a simple sentence, in fact im shaking because im writting.this is because i dont noe how to write or spell anymore.and thats y most of my posting is pictures and not alphabets in it.this is because i dont noe how to write anymore.im trying now and forgive me for y illeteracy .

i realized that i lost myself.

i lost me who r easy going

i lost the hani who are happy

i miss her

i miss bein free

i miss hangin around my buddies

my clicks

i miss bein loved

i miss bein fun

i miss bein me who do things that i like without having to be responsible of it

hahahah

obviously

i am not happy as i used to

shah alam, from day one, im not happy

it is not a good semester at all, but i thank God for introducing me to Nora and Nina, and BunBun.

i am so sad

i was sick for most of the time in shah alam, i was lonely too.

i was very unhappy with classes, and the fatigue-ness i suffered.

i was sick all the tyme.

and i dont like it

i miss classes and i cant concentrate in class.

im so glad that i failed 2 papers---- mls and torts

ironicly, torts is my fav subject

during mls classes, i yang akan duduk dpn and listen to mdm. tapi last last satu benda pun me tak paham.

ive breaked my personal worst-- pointer 2.39.

thank u .

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micheal Buble- i love u so much

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neyo---part of the list, i love it

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and yes, talked to Hafreeze.. finally!

he is gonna get married soon and he was such a wonderful listener.

he was there to take away my confusion when i needed it the most.

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dyanah............camney tok?

ati kamek sakit

im hurt

so bad.

REBOUNCE?

OH YES

AND I AM HAPPY THAT IM NOT LONGER YOURS ***

IM GLAD WE R OVER.

IM HAPPY THAT I DONT HAF TO ARGUE ABOUT TRUST.

IM HAPPY THAT I CAN THINK ABOUT MYSELF ALL THE TYME

HAHAHAH

FUNNY

I AM HAPPY

AND YES luqman scored very impressively in his exam. cgpa 3.4, and he can beat up Musawir. hahahah

great.

kip it up

and u shud not stay in shah alam.

u shud go to other university because ur a great model of karpal singh

hahaha

u will be a great lawyer because u give the best justification everytime asked.

u give the best and unexpected ideas and thought everytime asked.

senang cakap u memang terbaik

. liars like u can go far in this industry.

another great lines

2009-11-17T12:06:00.000-08:00

I am in a bit of an emotional rut here. Might soon indulge in a little bit of an existential crisis or maybe a sprinkle of anxiety attacks. Call it whatever you want because by the end of it all, when they do occur, it is me and only me who knows how it is to not be capable of feeling. In the meantime, sombreness celebrated, do enjoy this beautiful poem that succeeded in making me feel a rush of good ol' goosebumps.

A Love Song by William Carlos Williams

What have I to say to you
When we shall meet?
Yet—
I lie here thinking of you.

The stain of love
Is upon the world.
Yellow, yellow, yellow,
It eats into the leaves,
Smears with saffron
The horned branches that lean
Heavily
Against a smooth purple sky.

There is no light—
Only a honey-thick stain
That drips from leaf to leaf
And limb to limb
Spoiling the colours
Of the whole world.

I am alone.
The weight of love
Has buoyed me up
Till my head
Knocks against the sky.

See me!
My hair is dripping with nectar—
Starlings carry it
On their black wings.
See, at last
My arms and my hands
Are lying idle.

How can I tell
If I shall ever love you again
As I do now?

Poem Three: The Awakening

2009-11-17T09:08:00.000-08:00

It's all I have to bring today –
This, and my heart beside –
This, and my heart, and all the fields –
And all the meadows wide –
Be sure you count – should I forget
Some one the sum could tell –
This, and my heart, and all the Bees
Which in the Clover dwell.

It's all I have to bring today (26) by Emily Dickinson

Poem Two: The Process of Dreaming

2009-11-17T09:00:00.000-08:00

I dream of you, to wake: would that I might
Dream of you and not wake but slumber on;
Nor find with dreams the dear companion gone,
As, Summer ended, Summer birds take flight.
In happy dreams I hold you full in night.
I blush again who waking look so wan;
Brighter than sunniest day that ever shone,
In happy dreams your smile makes day of night.
Thus only in a dream we are at one,
Thus only in a dream we give and take
The faith that maketh rich who take or give;If thus to sleep is sweeter than to wake,
To die were surely sweeter than to live,
Though there be nothing new beneath the sun.

Monna Innominata [I dream of you, to wake] by Christina Rossetti

Poem One: Pre-Voyage to Dreamland.

2009-11-17T08:50:00.000-08:00

Lay your sleeping head, my love,
Human on my faithless arm;
Time and fevers burn away
Individual beauty from
Thoughtful children, and the grave
Proves the child ephemeral:
But in my arms till break of day
Let the living creature lie,
Mortal, guilty, but to me
The entirely beautiful.

First Stanza of "Lullaby" by W.H. Auden